He loves me.
That’s why he’s still here.
He loves me.
We’ve just got off the phone.
Things seem to be picking up for our friendship/relationship
It’s taken a while, but here we are
So today was crap. Actually no, it was okay. I went shopping with my mum. Got away with eating very little :)
I weighed myself this morning, 7st 7lb.
I have another blog, it’s my distraction blog if anyone wants to see it.
Why me? Why stick around? I’m a mess, I spend most of my nights crying, I self harm, I starve myself, I want to die, I hate everything about myself, but you’re still here. I just wonder why?
Your friends, the girls, they’re so pretty. The way you talk about some of them, they sound amazing. So why haven’t you left me, stopped trying and gone for one of them?
I don’t deserve you. I really don’t. Sometimes I feel like shouting at you, because you’re talking to me every night on the phone, and not to them. Sometimes I think you must be blind not to see the beautiful girls that want your attention.
I know I’d be jealous if you did all this to another girl, but all the same, why me?
To that anon, I’m not going to post your message because it just makes me smile. Thank you, so much.
I hurt. I just hate myself, and I hate living.